Violence

Sometimes I fear my own temper.

My bad moods tend to spiral.

It's gotten better over the years. More calm.

At one point..

If someone was walking too slow in front of me..

...I'd want to...

Doesn't happen anymore.

Not with that intensity, anyhow.

My mind sinks occasionally.

I imagine being attacked and of what I would do.

Blow

for

Blow.

Vicious...

Vengeful

I have been bullied.

Victimized.

For years not a day went by that I didn't think of him...First with self-pity, then with revenge burning my mind into a fury.

I don't know that I wouldn't just...

...If confronted with my past.

I see porn shops set ablaze.

I see pimps beaten.

I see abuse victims, rape victims, responding with

But don't worry about me; I know this is not the answer.

Violence and revenge solve nothing in the long run.

I will control my temper. Because I am better than an animal.